Welcome Back, Us.

Unbelievably, it has almost been an entire year since we've posted an update. My, times flies!

I sit here typing, in good spirits, feeling the Lord in every aspect of life. To say God is good and to truly believe are two entirely different things. But then when is saying and believing ever the same? There have been many foggy moments over the past year. Many gray spots and times when I've personally thought the He did not have my best interest at heart. I doubted our Lord, as ridiculous as that may be. We get so caught up in the "now" that we tend to lose our farsighted vision. Jesus Messiah never goes on vacation from us, friends.

With that said, the updating shall begin. Delaney has turned two! My baby, my little diva is now a 'toddler' in her 'terrible twos'. :) She never ceases to amaze me. She lives life with a greater appreciation than I do at times. Everything is taken in at a running speed, a nonstop chatter, and always be sure of never ending questions to follow. It will be interesting to see how she reacts come the end of August...when...baby number 2 arrives!

We are pregnant with a second munchkin - as I'm sure you all know, already - and we're very excited. While I'm convinced that this is a boy - Daddy is not so ready to bank on the idea. (For fear of getting excited...I'm sure.)Delaney already talks to my belly, so - so far, so good!

Sean's job is going well for the most part. His company recently moved locations, into a newer building and into PA. He now doesn't have to drive into Jersey everyday! He has his own office and is getting ready to start ringing in the sales. Lord willing.

I am just the same ole same ole. In desperate need of meeting other Mom's. I'm starting to feel the need for some girl time!! But who has time to make friends? haha. Oh my. I hope to join MOPS soon and start getting involved in church. That will surely help, the process...here's hoping.

Other than that - we are just living life. I shall be sure to stay on top of the blog for all 2 of you people who read it. haha. We find out Monday what we're having!!! :) Are you excited? :)

roots or wings

i heard a rather profound statement today.

"you can't have roots AND wings."

does that do anything to you? it certainly does to me. i'm so determined to settle down my little family and yet i desperately desire to fly to my dreams and goals. thinking about roots and what they are, actually.

The root is the organ of a plant body that typically lies below the surface of the soil. But, this is not always the case, since a root can also be aerial (that is, growing above the ground) or aerating (that is, growing up above the ground or especially above water).The two major functions of roots are 1.) absorption of water and inorganic nutrients and 2.) anchoring the plant body to the ground. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Root

rooting myself and my family in a community, a church, a ministry, friends...its the organ of the plant. are roots what foundate a family? in a typical situation, the root is growing beneath the soil. ours at the present time are "aerial...aerating". we are above the ground, waiting for the right soil or spot of ground to dive into.


wings?

A wing is an appendage used for flight by an animal or an apparatus used to create lift in aeronautics.

free as a bird? i think i must trade in my wings for a good set of roots.

let your light shine:)

it is official. david cook has won. :)

i like him. a-l-o-t.

now that that's out with - allow me to briefly update you, my devoted fans. (ha!)

sean and i are doing well. after a much needed hiatus of a week , which entailed scampering off to nh for a week, we have found our relationship refreshed and vibrant yet again. if you are finding yourself taking your lova' for granted...take some days apart. :0) hopefully it will have the same affect and effect. :0)

we are in the midst of hope. i am desperately grasping onto the Lord's hand as a child following a parent through a massive crowd. i all toooo easily, lose myself in moments of chaos and stress. so despite the past year and its' events, we find hope yet still. thankyou Jesus. for your patience. grace.

delaney is talking more than EVER. today she found my license on the bed - unique place for it - and said, "hello mommy, its a baby". ahhh, she is growing all toooo fast. it makes me slightly weep inside. where my child is concerned - my heart is proudly sewn on my sleeve. love isn't adequate enough, to describe the feelings. have one, and then we can talk. have one now? lets talk!

chris graduated on monday. ahh, my little brother is now a big college grad. how odd. we are all growing so old. :0) we went up to white plains to meet my parents and aunt, to cheer him own during graduation. and in a HUGE stadium...we appropriately screamed for him...when he was called. yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! congratulations christopher. i am so so so soooooo proud! we all are.

other than me doing the treadmill daily...(haha, had to sneak that in) things are just about the same. we are looking for foreclosed homes...as well as apartments right now. pray with us that we will be directed in His will. that we will remain in tune to His voice! we are waiting to hear when sean's company relocates so we may find housing in the right time zone. right now he's in new jersey - about a 40 minute commute. it will soon be moving to the pocono area...which is 40minutes in the opposite direction. lol. so when we know the date - we're off to the land of 'amoreee'.

i pray you have a wonderful long weekend. remember our vets. THANKYOU. we especially, want to thank Matthew Light. (sean's cousin). we are praying for you and are very excited for you to return home for good this summer! (sean is, thrilled that you'll be home!)

love to you all!

kyla

insomniac

it is so late - its early and yet I'm sitting here typing. (12:15am to be exact). you see, the fan was making some random clickn noise...sean was hogging more than half the bed...it was too hot...i thought i felt a bug...delaney started humming in her sleep...and i just started thinking. I'm exhausted and ready to keel over and yet i CAN NOT SLEEP!

last night i found myself swimming in diarrhea:) wanna hear my story? ok, good. so i walked in the bedroom to smell this horrific odor. garbage/peaches/awfulness. i looked down on laneylou and she was covered and i mean - COVERED...in poop. her pjs, you could no longer tell the color. the sheets, the wall, the bumper...the crib, her passy, her stuffed animals, you name it...it was poopafied. so we went off to the sink to take a tubby and try to scrape half dry, half liquid off her body. then i had to strip the crib, spray it down...all of this at an ungodly hour of 11:19pm. finally after all was said and done - we attempted to go to sleep with the strong scent still ringing in the air. sean luckily had a business trip to the jersey shore, so he got to miss out on all the action.

i have been 'dieting'/changing my healthy attitude and have successfully lost almost 15lbs. its been a good thing for me and my self confidence. all girls, whether they admit it or not...long to be thin and slender. (i know they mean the same thing...but we really do want to be BOTH slender and thin.) so i'll continue on the forever battle. i do know that i must get back to my lovely friends sadly packed away in boxes. i have a gazillion things of clothes that need my old self back again. i can do this. i can lose weight...become thin and slender...and then get pregnant again. ? ;)

well i think I'm going to wash my face again...and try to sleep in the distractingly loud/silent room. wish me luck and know that if you're dear to my heart - I'm most likely praying for you tonight. God has me up for a reason...and the reason is YOU.

ps. now please try and remember that = it is 28 minutes past midnight and I'm not up for 'correctness'. so if you can't understand a sentence...or you find a stupid spelling mistake...you best ignore it. because i am a perfect writer, in normal office hours;)

xoxo

butterflies and ants and such

i see her sitting
with such a joy
trying to make
this ant a toy

laughter and uncertainty
fill both eyes
she looks to me
and starts to cry

for my expression
was filled with disgust
and she was determined
to give ant her trust

a fling of the insect
and a laugh at its flight
her giggles to me
made the memory just right

then a cool breeze blows
as the sun shines down
and for that moment
again peace is found

there are days when words fail to flow - others, i speak in lyrics. haha. we are enjoying this 75 degree weather. i do however, fear my allergies are becoming worse in old age. ;) i have never, EVER sneezed 6 times in a row and not even 5minutes ago - did i do just that. delaney and i spend a lot of time at the park. we love being outside. yesterday when sean got home from work - we took off for the park right down the street. as he logistically placed the blanket facing the basketball courts...delaney and i took in the wonder and glory around us. i love watching her face as she explores. it usually goes like this.

step 1: get right down in it
step 2: rip it out of the ground, off the carpet, blanket...etc and hold it - passing it back and forth , allowing both hands have a go at the texture
step 3: give a sniff and then insert in mouth
step 4: mommy says no, take it out, try to hide it so it isn't taken away
step 5: insert in mouth and TRY to give it a chew...and repeat

the mouth is the final test. its funny, how we all mom's experience the same thing - at different times. and the life lessons - for US - vary. as delaney is seeking her independence in exploring things, i find myself in a weird hovering/you can do it....situation. as she stands on her own (holding onto furniture) i do the hand behind back, step away, hand holding belt buckle, step away...i'm afraid if she falls. the last thing i want is for her to get hurt and fear something, prevent her from wanting to try it again. and then i hear the Lord saying - ahhh, yes. how very 'cute', that you are now getting a better visual of my daily walk with YOU, kyla. i know the Lord doesn't fear what may happen in my concern, etc. but i do know how desperately He loves me, how he wants to see me succeed, to be happy, be independent in Him alone.

as i said, the life lessons are flowing. my feelings of inadequacy as a parent, now roll into my spiritual life. :) haha. the responsibility i have in raising this child in the light of the Lord, is great. the responsibility to be salt and light in this world is even greater. i have an amazing gift to share with lost people...i have the gift of love and that light that can shine even in the darkest of darks. i have Jesus as my savior and i must share.

i'm a girl of tangents and if you followed that thought process, congratulations! ;) i must hit the road here, much to do. but may you have a blessed day...

very curious little girl. she was also just getting over a cold:( sad. she had a stye in left eye, i have never had a stye..in my life and in 14months of life...she has.

peace in the clouds

For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses,
insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am
strong. 1 cor. 12:10

i am not content in weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions and calamities. THERE. i can admit it. i have so far to go in my spiritual walk with Christ. how are you doing today? i woke up with a sudden desire to be all i can be - (recent monster ad, with the stork. seen it? really good.) i realize i can't be all i can be until i find peace in where the Lord has placed me. so today. i will try to be content. i am certainly weak - now i need to find the strength that follows. look to the sky and have a happy church day!

slow words

(we can finally do a pigtail...granted we don't yank it out or freak before its in there!)

so here i am.

after almost a month hiatus, i have returned. over this past month - i've attempted to write many times. but for some reason my thoughts wouldn't connect with my words and so i'd write and delete....write and delete.

no matter what this blog sounds like, i will write anyways. :0) you have been warned. i am not even going to read it a second time...otherwise i may delete and then you who have been on my case about updating - will continue to do so.

we've had a pretttttttttttttttttty interesting month, to say the least. whoever told me "you think normal teeth are bad, wait till they start teething molars!", yah about that...you failed to ah, stress the BAD part. my poor 13 monther has been teething 4 molars - all at once. the bottom two have finally broken through - one on top is almost there and the other remains teasing. needless to say, its been a rough month with ZERO sleep. okay, maybe not zero but close to it. to top it off, delaney and i both have gross colds. i have a bad sore throat and she is all stuffy and runny. we always seem to get sick when we spend time with the boys. i don't understand why they are always sick. hmmm. its no fun to be all stuff though when the weather is as gorgeous as it has been. can anyone top our 70* weather?? mom? bridgette?

sean finally got a tooth pulled, that was giving him some serious pain. he's spent many a night till morning on the living room floor . i'm so thankful he's not in pain. his job is going well, growing and learning. he was just put on salary and had a 1.25 raise. now we're just waiting for commission to start coming in. huge prayer request. his company will be moving up to the pocono's area and so we also seek for wisdom as we look around the area to find our new humble abode. i would LOVE to get a house but if we need to rent out to save some more money - the Lord will make it known.

me on the other hand, have been busy keeping up with a baby who now moves everywhere. baby proofing as we go along here. everything went into her mouth before, but now EVERYTHING goes into the mouth. if she see's me watching she holds her hand high in the air to give it to me, but in the moments when she thinks "mommy isn't watching, ha!" she quickly gives it a chew. it has certainly made me keep up on the vacuuming. :0) another big thing, which won't be that huge to all...but bear with me, delaney is completely weaned. this is another reason why this past month has been a bit draining. emotionally and physically for both of us. after 13 months of breastfeeding though - i am very thrilled of my returned semi-freedom.

as for spiritual insight? ahh, i'm lacking. its been more of a month of journaling my heart and praying about it. when i don't know where to look, i always go to james. i have read that book a trillion times over and still - the conviction i feel is just as strong as the first time i read through. our walk with christ is and will always be, about faith. there will always be doubts that toss to and fro' . this has been one of my favorite bible verses for quite sometime. its a well known verse and its one that all should know. "for surely i know the plans i have for you, says the lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope." jer 29:11

he knows our road map. he knows where we're heading. he desires hope and good welfare for our lives. and in this, i must place my trust.

have a wonderful weekend and stay in the word, its one of the only thing that will keep you going on this bumpy path.

(small picture - but this was at dinner after meghan and todd's wedding this past wednesday night. we had some yummy Italian food. :0) )