insomniac

it is so late - its early and yet I'm sitting here typing. (12:15am to be exact). you see, the fan was making some random clickn noise...sean was hogging more than half the bed...it was too hot...i thought i felt a bug...delaney started humming in her sleep...and i just started thinking. I'm exhausted and ready to keel over and yet i CAN NOT SLEEP!

last night i found myself swimming in diarrhea:) wanna hear my story? ok, good. so i walked in the bedroom to smell this horrific odor. garbage/peaches/awfulness. i looked down on laneylou and she was covered and i mean - COVERED...in poop. her pjs, you could no longer tell the color. the sheets, the wall, the bumper...the crib, her passy, her stuffed animals, you name it...it was poopafied. so we went off to the sink to take a tubby and try to scrape half dry, half liquid off her body. then i had to strip the crib, spray it down...all of this at an ungodly hour of 11:19pm. finally after all was said and done - we attempted to go to sleep with the strong scent still ringing in the air. sean luckily had a business trip to the jersey shore, so he got to miss out on all the action.

i have been 'dieting'/changing my healthy attitude and have successfully lost almost 15lbs. its been a good thing for me and my self confidence. all girls, whether they admit it or not...long to be thin and slender. (i know they mean the same thing...but we really do want to be BOTH slender and thin.) so i'll continue on the forever battle. i do know that i must get back to my lovely friends sadly packed away in boxes. i have a gazillion things of clothes that need my old self back again. i can do this. i can lose weight...become thin and slender...and then get pregnant again. ? ;)

well i think I'm going to wash my face again...and try to sleep in the distractingly loud/silent room. wish me luck and know that if you're dear to my heart - I'm most likely praying for you tonight. God has me up for a reason...and the reason is YOU.

ps. now please try and remember that = it is 28 minutes past midnight and I'm not up for 'correctness'. so if you can't understand a sentence...or you find a stupid spelling mistake...you best ignore it. because i am a perfect writer, in normal office hours;)

xoxo